I know, I know…. I haven’t posted in FOREVER! I just feel so strange posting here. I’m obviously still following all of you and keeping updated but I’m not doing my part, I guess. I’m so excited to see all of my “friends” posting about their new babies and Oregon Annie’s and new attempts. I love it all, but I just can’t seem to get it together, or get up the nerve to post about my son. I wish I had followed through on my blog and posted every up-date, but I’ve been recording every single second in other ways. Anyways, it’s Mother’s Day and it’s bittersweet. I’ve been having a bit of a difficult time lately watching those of you who have been with me from the start- the ones who went through it all the first time and we almost all ended up with babies. Now, you have second babies or are on the path to… I am so incredibly excited and happy for you all!!!!! Please don’t get me wrong! I feel crazy for even posting that I am jealous and wondering if we will ever have a sibling for our miracle.
But, I digress… It’s Mother’s Day and Facebook is a trigger a I’ve been on the verge of tears for days. Not for just me and how grateful I am for my blessing but for those that are still dealing with the awfulness that loss and infertility takes on the soul. Sometimes Facebook is wonderful and other times I can’t take the pressure to succumb to the necessity of posts, especially because my family lives far away. This is the best I could do to mitigate the post I felt was necessary to recognize the moms in my family who want me to show them my live on the book of faces… I hope I did an okay job of getting it all across…
Making a Mother’s Day post is very difficult for me because I know how simply awful this time of year is for so many, whether it be the loss of a mother or the want to be a mother. Personally, I’ve gone back and forth about even posting anything at all. This time of year is bittersweet and I’ve been getting choked up about this day for the last few days. I want to acknowledge the strength of all people wanting to parent another human, and how difficult society makes it for everyone when things don’t go according to plan.
With that said,
Happy Mother’s Day to all the moms out there that never thought they’d be a mom after loss and infertility, to the mother’s who planned their babies and their parenting style, to the ones parenting adopted babies, to the ones who were gifted surprises that make every day better than the last, to the mamas that now are, were, and the ones to be.
Happy Mother’s Day to my own mother, who has bent backwards supporting her children, my grandmother, my mother-in-law, my aunts, cousins, and friends. May this day remind you of your blessings and may you take the time to hold them near and recognize just how incredibly lucky you really are.
A friend posted this quote and I find it to be the most touching quote I’ve read about mothers:
“There are lots of different kinds of moms out there. Whether your babies are with you, with someone else, gone from this earth, or still a hope for the future; whether they were born to you or someone else; whether they are covered in skin or fur. To every woman out there who would sacrifice everything for a baby you have, had, or wish to have, I hope you find love and peace today and always.”
Thank you M!